So I could only ask, hoping what he said was true.
“How long… do you plan to keep me alive?”
“Who knows.”
His gently folded eyes and red lips drew a bewitching arc. It was a smile beautiful enough to make strangers blush.
But to me, that expression felt chilling. It seemed like he was weighing my life on scales, contemplating whether to let me live or not.
“If you’re useful, you’ll live long.”
“How do I… prove that usefulness?”
“I’ll gradually find out.”
His lips closed stubbornly, seemingly unwilling to explain details. In fact, my body was reaching its limits too. My head was hot and I had chills, making it difficult to think about anything more.
Just when I was about to close my eyes and rest, a tingling sensation bloomed in my lower abdomen.
‘No way…’
It was that terrible sensation that tormented me when night came. The area between my legs twitched involuntarily, creating a desire to rub against something. Swept up in these abnormal impulses that made me feel like I was becoming someone else, I felt both disgusted and afraid.
I knew this person was the only one who could stop this body, but I didn’t want to ask him. It was an instinctive rejection, regardless of rational thought.
‘What should I do…?’
Not knowing what to do, I bit my lower lip repeatedly when the man looked at me. Then one corner of his mouth slowly rose.
“You’re in heat right now, aren’t you?”
“Ah…”
How did he know?
My heart felt like it plummeted off a cliff. Then he whispered to me in a voice sweeter than a demon’s.
“Should I help you, or not?”
His golden eyes persistently scanned my body. Strangely, just his gaze touching me made my breathing gradually quicken, like hands caressing my body.
The man who had been standing quietly watching me pulled over a chair from beside the bed and sat down. His eyes held anticipation like an excited child before an interesting game.
“If you don’t want it, never mind. I won’t do anything and will just watch from here, so handle it yourself.”
Whether he really intended to do that, he sat in the chair with his legs crossed, staring at me. My lower body was buzzing, clamoring for immediate relief from this heat.
If those large hands would just touch me a little, no, if I could reach cl*max, I could resolve this gap tormenting me. But this was exactly the act I found so disgusting. And he wanted me to ask for help with my own mouth.
With this sweet option before me, I kept feeling conflicted. His hands came into view. Memories of those large hands soothing me and the ecstasy that filled my whole body kept clouding my mind. At the same time, self-loathing for having such thoughts weighed me down.
“Ahh…”
When I groaned while clenching my teeth, he wore a faint smile. But his gaze watching me was utterly cold. It was the heartless look of an owner trying to tame a wild beast.
No matter how much I suffered here, he didn’t seem likely to help first. At the end of this stubborn battle would be a victorious smile from successfully making me submit. After all, it was me who wanted him, not the other way around.
So it would be better to ask him now while my mind was still somewhat intact. That’s why I had to reluctantly wrap those words I never wanted to say, those words I’d rather die than utter, around my tongue.
“…Please, help… me. Me…”
“How?”
His long eye corners curved thinly. His lips held a faint, ambiguous smile. I tried to endure somehow, but my body kept trembling.
Ah, I couldn’t bear it anymore.
I just wanted those hands to touch me quickly.
“Like yesterday, touch me and…”
“Where?”
“Below… below…”
“You say below but I don’t really understand? You need to be specific for me to know.”
“Hng… the place you touched yesterday…, my lower hole…”
“Then explain how I should touch you too.”
Now it was hard to stay conscious in the hot heat surrounding my entire body. I couldn’t be aware of what I was saying with my own mouth. I trembled and shed tears, hoping he would quickly relieve my body.
“Feel good… rub with your fingers… and thr*st into my lower hole.”
“Good job. You should have said that from the start.”
Through my blurry vision, I saw his lips curve up smoothly. My head kept spinning from the heat wrapping around my whole body. When I blinked briefly, I glimpsed him removing clothes. The places his hands brushed were hot like burns.
“Ah…”
The man who had stripped off even my underwear roughly rubbed my private parts with his hand. At his simple gesture, my waist twitched like I’d been struck by lightning.
He hadn’t done much, but below was already soaked with leaked fl*ids. The person who would normally drag things out and torment me wickedly thr*st his finger deep inside.
“Hngh…!”
Since it was already thoroughly wet, the foreign intruder entering didn’t hurt at all. Just a strange, stiff feeling somewhere.
When his finger moved back and forth in a reciprocating motion, sharp pleasure spread. After repeating this several times, the number gradually increased one by one.
Squelch, squelch, squelch. Squelch.
The wet fingers made all sorts of sounds. Hearing this with my hazy mind, I felt so ashamed I didn’t want to believe these sounds came from inside me. But the more shame I felt, the more love juices my lower body spurted out.
“You’re not even a beast in heat. This d*mn p*ssy isn’t satisfied even with four fingers. At this rate, even two c*cks wouldn’t be enough.”
“No, no… hah, ngh…!”
I couldn’t bring myself to say the word “no” all the way through. Every time his four fingers thr*st into me, pleasure that seemed to shatter my whole body rose up. I couldn’t maintain my sanity.
It was an indescribable feeling. An abnormal sensation of becoming distantly separated from this world surrounding me.
“What do you mean no? If you have ears, you should hear the wet sounds too. With this much p*ssy juice, everyone in the mansion could drink it and have plenty left over.”
I heard his voice spitting out vulgar words, but I couldn’t say anything. I could only let out beast-like cries that didn’t sound human.
“Ngh… ahng… hah, ahh…!”
I think I had to admit it now. I had definitely sworn my whole life not to become like my mother, but this pleasure shaking my body was so ecstatic, so breathtaking that I felt like I was going crazy.
Whether it was because of the magic cast on me or if intimacy between men and women was originally like this, I didn’t know, but even if this sensation devoured my body and shattered it to pieces, it wouldn’t seem bad.
When the sound of love juices filling me and overflowing around burst out, he moved his fingers even faster. When the area between my legs trembled and I had the illusion that my mind was being torn white, a tsunami larger than a storm crashed over me.
“Ahng… ahhhngh! Ngh…!”
Even at my ear-splitting scream, he still didn’t stop moving. Pleas to please stop circled in my mouth. But I didn’t even have the strength to speak. After suffering like that for a while, the pleasure shaking my whole body finally stopped.
I panted with ragged breathing, and perhaps because my physical condition had been poor, the ceiling spun dizzily. I tried to barely grasp the distant edge of consciousness that kept trying to fade away, but it scattered like smoke.
With the man’s smiling expression watching me as the last thing I saw, my eyes slowly closed.
‘Ah…’
***
When I opened my eyes, outside the window was still stained with darkness. I looked around but couldn’t see the man anywhere. Actually, that was much more fortunate for me.
Last night’s events unfolded vividly in my mind like they had just happened, and meeting him in this state would only bring shame. Yesterday my body had been burning so I couldn’t make rational judgments, but now my mind was perfectly clear.
My appearance pleading to him and my sobbing m*ans came to me like nightmares. Just thinking about it made my chest feel stuffy and uncomfortable. It would probably be something I’d never get used to in my lifetime.
‘How do other people do such things? I… just recalling it feels so terrible I can’t stand it…’
Still, maybe because I had slept soundly all night, my body felt much lighter than yesterday. I got up and hurried out of the room, worried I might be late again today.
Yesterday I had come straight to the annex without stopping by the dormitory, so I didn’t need to change clothes. So I headed to the kitchen in the clothes I was wearing.
Fortunately, not many people had come to work in the kitchen yet. Worried about being chased out by Ralph again like yesterday, I organized my station and quickly trimmed vegetables.
‘If I finish trimming everything before Ralph comes, I might be able to get at least some of today’s wages.’
When I had processed about half the vegetables piled in the basket, people began appearing one by one. As expected, the kitchen staff’s expressions looking at me weren’t pleasant. Somewhat displeased gazes turned toward me.
They also seemed unwelcome to having me in the kitchen, worried it might unnecessarily provoke Ralph’s mood.
‘Sorry for making things uncomfortable, but what can I do? My family needs to eat and live too.’